Still

Thursday, December 23, 2004: 4:29 am -

aziz - the first guy, and one of the first people that i'm close to when i'm in UiTM. people might see him as weird or trying to be 'weird'. but for me, its just who he is, and somehow u'll understand when you get to know him (believe me aziz, where i am now, i do understand all the shit stuff you did).

i've been thru alot with him, and he knows practically everything about me. he's always there for me when i needed someone, and always makes me laugh and comfort me when i'm weary. thanx
aziz for the beautiful memories that u adorned in my life. i wish i could see it ealier that what i thought and what i believe was too 'black-or-white'. i never see things in between it. sometimes i do regret what had happen but at least, i learn alot from each mistakes.

aziz, no matter what happen, i still see you as the lad who is always confident of what he says or what he does and the lad will always be one of my best buds i ever had in my life. thanks alot aziz. i love you

-Written by my bestfriend 3 weeks before she passed away.

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She passed away in London. I didnt get to say goodbye. To be completely honest, I was quite glad not to be able to go to the funeral.

I still have her mobile number in my phone. And i still have the feeling that one day my phone would ring and her name would appear.

I have few important things to tell. I still owe her an explaination, and an apology.